I was seriously pissed off by some of my Facebook friends attitudes and felt broken. So I went to Youtube and tried to find some dark songs. Suddenly I found a song named "MMD-Nightmares" I was playing it and tried to felt it from my heart (My soul was full of anger, sadness and hatred then.
Honestly, that music made my mind gloomy and I felt strange. It was like a sleep paralysis experience. It made me feels like that, I wanna shout but I can't even talk, I wanna run but can't even move. A complete "mute environment". Even It made me feels more darkness.
I went to Youtube again and try to find some sad orchestra music. This time I find out "IvanTorrent- Before I leave this world" song. It's so much sad and heart touching. Basically, It may be a suicide song as well. Whatever, I like it. Oh, I find a poem written by someone in that video's comment section. I can't stop myself from sharing that poem.
"Before I leave this world
Into the unknown where I’ve been hurled
Let me experience life once more
And say goodbye to its marvelous store
Send me to the rolling meadows
Where my voice comes in echoes
Where the wind blows in a calming breeze
Where my love proposed on his knees
Take me to the shores of the sea
Where my love and I were as happy as can be
Take me to the mountains so I might stand on the summit
Where the snow takes its icy plummet
Here I will gaze upon the world
Where the icy winds first swirled
And look upon all of Natures creation
Where She has made her glorious impression
Let me fly upon the wind
And watch the sun become dimmed
In marvelous colors of joy
That I always enjoy
Lay me to rest in the ocean's embrace
And the last I see is my lovers face
As I sink slowly into this dark abyss
Into heavens mighty bliss
Love me while I’m gone
And remember me not for what I've done wrong
But for all, I hoped to achieve
And do not forever grieve
For I am watching over you
Let your heart be pure and true
And remember me as I was
Before I leave this world."
Now, you understand how music can make environment sad and gloomy? If you some this type dark and sad songs links, please comment under my post. I will try to collect some of the links for you.
